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Short term memory
Hmm, so, where do I begin...? I have a lot on my mind.
(For at least these couple
seconds hours as I type
out this meandaring ramble of a blog post)
I seem to have forgotten what was on my mind already, wow!
Just a moment while I re-open some tabs...
in all honesty I've kind of been ignoring my neocities, and...
Hmm, how do I phrase this?
I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT I'M DOING.
(Ignore the relatively modern design,
I had help from all my web-dev friends in &xkcd)
When I made this site, I had delusions of grandeur, involving
creating and uploading lots and lots creative projects all the time,
evolving my site to a degree of stylistic and accessibility perfection,
commanding a huge zombie-like army of obsessive fans,
and, uhm, I dunno. Probably other stuff.
I got sidetracked researching the semantics of <s> vs <del>.
Just like the late network neighborhood (which I greatly admired), whose downfall might have seemed sudden due to its outward sheen, this slump partially stems from the ill-thought-out nature of my site, or at least my overbearing expectations for it. (Also, I haven't actually done much, also like the NN)
However, the NN is not what led me to this revelation. Mainly, I'd been pondering over how sites such as Yudosai, Forgetmenots, and Joppiesaus all focused on updating their journals regularly, not their whole sites. But the catalyst was Strata's abandonment of their journal, or rather, their acceptance of said fact. Websites, and their focus, change. Sometimes, you just have to let go of your expectations.
So, above all, that's what I'll try to work on. Accepting that, yes, my site's going to continue to be a mess while I try to work out this "life" thing. And also uploading. I need to do that. Thanks for bearing with me. :)